So, turns out I'm not much an everyday writer anymore. Not that I've ever really been. The only creative writing thing that's happened lately is my decision to try and continue TMC (Troll , Mermaid, Centaur). With that, as I've been having troubles with the first chapter of second part, where the heroes are supposed to meet a bunch of giant grasshoppers who advice them on a direction they ought to take, but I just haven't been able to get in on that. So, I pretty much decided that I'll just Hasu, the centaur, brighter than what he was originally supposed to be and skip the hopper scene entirely. I felt a bit more relaxed after that, but not entirely happy. I also wrote some practise dialogue in my notebook, but nothing bigger has happened yet.

Also, as per more of writing business, I'm not entirely sure I'll be wanting to do NaNo again this year. I enjoy it - if - I know what I'm doing with the story. If I'm not sure where the characters are going, or what they're like, it's just overly painful to write. That is exactly what happened last November, and although I technically got to 50,000 words, I felt absolutely nothing good for it. The amount of words, well, that was all that I had left in my hands when I'd finished, and they were all pretty much useless. I don't want to put myself through something I can't even enjoy at some point. And I've run out of stories I'm more or less enough familiar with. I have to know the story, at least some chapters before I do any actual writing, I have to be able to imagine in my mind. If I don't have that, I freeze. I'm not one of those writers who just 'let the characters lead', or 'go where the story goes'. Probably because if I just let go and write, it's going to be nothing but utter crap, and I'd rather write something I can pick through and find maybe one or two good points. Or even three, if I've been careful. :\

Also, it's no fun if you're doing it completely alone. >.<



School is stressing me out. I never sleep enough (*kicks the computer*), I have to wake up early just to be early (because I simply cannot come to school at the same time as everyone else, but half an hour before), and I'm literally late with my work. Currently, we are making a women's jacket. I'm making mine for my mother, one because I'd prefer to save my few droplets of income on something else, and two because they're not really my style anyway. Now, to make sure it fits, we need to make a prototype, fit that, make changes and possibly make a new prototype to see if it fits better with the changes. Currently, I have the parts on paper with some changes, but no.. hmm.. the ... dammit. Space, for the seams. The line... Argh. This is the bad side of getting through school faster. No language studies. Anyway, not quite everyone is ready to cut their fabrics, but most are a lot further than I am, and I'm still sure I'm going to end up changing the whole thing a second time. Jackets are tricky.

As for the shorter amount of time in school. Since I've already completed, well, high school's probably the closest, one upper secondary education, and since vocational is the same lever as high school, the only thing my class needs to study is the actual sewing and all that pattern studies thing. We don't get any math, languages, gym.. physics, chemistry, I think the ordinary class has to do one philosophy class too. Basically, everything my class has already done. So we don't get any of that now. Still... It doesn't really make much sense, because we are supposed to be able to talk about these things in English and Swedish and we certainly didn't cover these kind of particular words back in high school language classes. It's unfair I tell you.

I do wonder if I would be able to buy a work-based dictionary somewhere... :\ Mmm. I miss English studies.



And now, since I can't think of more to write about, I guess I should go to bed then. Try and sleep some for once.